I have been speeding through the library books I posted earlier, some have been really fun and exciting to read, one of them not so much. This unfortunate book came recommended from Powell’s bookstore with flying colors and had list of well liked authors all applauding it’s creation, but for me it was badly focused, lacking conflict, or interesting character and physically fragmented which kept bringing me out of the world without a good reason. A book for all standards most people would have just set aside and moved on to the next book on their nightstand. Well, not me.
You see, I have a hard time writing bad reviews for books and in general not finishing a book, even when the construction of the story is frustrating me. I do not see myself as a writer and am in awe at those who can create new worlds, characters, and stories with words. I understand this type of profession is not an easy one and so I respect the work and perseverance in creating and getting published a story. So when reading a story that has been thoughtfully created, written well, and has some beautiful passages, I try to push through hoping that maybe the writer hasn’t found their grove yet.
Unfortunately, I end up complaining and pointing out examples of bad construction allusions that fail, or unsympathetic protagonists that taste like day-old bread to my very patient partner. I am then reminded, that I do not have to finish the book, nor do I have to like the book. This is all fine and dandy when I decide to place book down that is three quarters read, but then I have to write the review.
Now most children, have hear the phrase, “Now, be nice.” over and over growing up. And to that years of Catholic guilt and I become an anxious book reviewer for the books I loathe. I understand the idea of a balanced book review: what you liked, what you don’t like, overall how you felt about the book, la, la, la. It’s just that the respect for writers and the understanding that not everyone likes the same types of books, keeps playing in my head. I don’t want to dissuade a person from reading a book, just because I don’t like it, but I do like objective book reviews or the myriad of This great reviews, the cryptic praise that means nothing, or the too in-depth review revealing all the spoilers for anyone unlucky to read them without knowing.
So what to do, how to balance my need to be respectful, objective, and brief. Until I get better of balancing these things, I guess I will have to live with the anxiety. Hopefully my current rate of reading will give much practice on Goodreads.